Alright.  So if you want to know about my past, read the last post.  However, I left out kind of the whole point.  Yes, it is to be more courageous, but there's a whole side of me that I didn't mention.

I was fat.  When I was 5 and in kindergarten, I started plumping up.  It just kept going and going.  In 2008, when I was 28, I started my decent out of obesity.  I weighed 317.  I have proof!  The card I used at the gym documented my journey.  Look in the "Original" column second from the bottom lists the original weight.  One year later, I lost 102 pounds.

So, you may say, "What's the problem?"  The problem is, is that I've never reached my goals.  Weight is only part of it.  Because I haven't reached my weight goal, or at least reached a point where I'm honestly content with my looks, I haven't reached my goals having to do with success in general.  I 100% believe my lack of relationships is directly related to my happiness within myself, which of course has to do with my weight and self-reflection.

I want to have value in people's lives.  To some degree, I do.  There is so much potential left that I can't reach without the relationships I currently have.  I'm in a box right now.  Since 2008, that box has grown tremendously.  I need to find the door that will let me out to where there is no ceiling and no confinement.  Instead of looking out the window at the beauty and the happiness everyone else is experiencing, I want to be a part of it.